Abandoned...
Poor blog. Feels so abandoned.
But I share another blog with my darling now, so there is no time here.
Dreams and hopes will probably be shared here again at a later time =)
See you around.
*hugs*
But I share another blog with my darling now, so there is no time here.
Dreams and hopes will probably be shared here again at a later time =)
See you around.
*hugs*
Nights...
Sleep evades me. Doesnt want to embrace me.
Im just waiting.
....
Im just waiting.
....
Me, finally back on track...
So here I am now. In Stockholm. Living in a bag on my sisters floor. I have a job again and it its turning out to be challenging and fun. I just wish it was in the right city.
In two months I will have 7 days with Mihai again, wich will be spent mostly in Göteborg since we are to have New Years dinner with some friends. It will be wonderful and afterwards I will be a mess again. But we are slowly moving towards the day when he is done with his studies and can come live in sweden.
Where is the Fast Forward button? Who hid it?
Last night was a Kick Off with my new workplace. They payed for everything and the food was good, the games at Ballbreaker was fun... And I left before the nomnom free drinks became too plentiful with some.
Life is pretty good to me at the moment.
So why can't I relax?
In two months I will have 7 days with Mihai again, wich will be spent mostly in Göteborg since we are to have New Years dinner with some friends. It will be wonderful and afterwards I will be a mess again. But we are slowly moving towards the day when he is done with his studies and can come live in sweden.
Where is the Fast Forward button? Who hid it?
Last night was a Kick Off with my new workplace. They payed for everything and the food was good, the games at Ballbreaker was fun... And I left before the nomnom free drinks became too plentiful with some.
Life is pretty good to me at the moment.
So why can't I relax?
10 days...
...and I asure you it feels like every day is slower than the one before.
10 days is rly nothing. Just slightly more than a week.
But when the days drag themselves by me one at a time I just find myself wanna scream cause they never seem to end.
So darling... Hurry up and get here. I have missed you for so long now.
Saruta-ma iubitul meu. Imi este dor de tine.
10 days is rly nothing. Just slightly more than a week.
But when the days drag themselves by me one at a time I just find myself wanna scream cause they never seem to end.
So darling... Hurry up and get here. I have missed you for so long now.
Saruta-ma iubitul meu. Imi este dor de tine.
35 days...
So yet another countdown and Im going in an emotional rollercoaster.
One day Im ecstatic... He is finally coming to see me... I will get to have him close to me again.
Next day Im going down cause its still so long... over a month...
Sitting here watching out the window... sun... green grass and flowers... People enjoying sunshine and each others company... it makes me miss him even more.
I want that... sitting in the grass... cuddling... Everyday life you know.
Still I will be his. Always. I am for him... and he is for me.
Mihai iubitule! Imi este dor de tine.
Get her fast...
One day Im ecstatic... He is finally coming to see me... I will get to have him close to me again.
Next day Im going down cause its still so long... over a month...
Sitting here watching out the window... sun... green grass and flowers... People enjoying sunshine and each others company... it makes me miss him even more.
I want that... sitting in the grass... cuddling... Everyday life you know.
Still I will be his. Always. I am for him... and he is for me.
Mihai iubitule! Imi este dor de tine.
Get her fast...
47 days.
Mihai has tickets... My love is coming to see me in Sweden.
*bouncing up and down with joy*
Cant wait. I miss you sweetie.
Pup!
*bouncing up and down with joy*
Cant wait. I miss you sweetie.
Pup!
Iubitule...
In june I will get to see him again... Maybe before that but nothing is certain.
Six months and a distance that would scare anyone... And even tho I get frustrated sometimes, all I want is to be near him. I actually found a man who will just hold me.. Just cause I need to be held.
On the other hand he claims he cant keep his hands off of me so... ;) Who knows how long he will "just" hold me =D
Anyway... My point is. I love him. He even got me thinking about children ;) Noone saw that coming huh? =D
Te sarut iubitule!
Six months and a distance that would scare anyone... And even tho I get frustrated sometimes, all I want is to be near him. I actually found a man who will just hold me.. Just cause I need to be held.
On the other hand he claims he cant keep his hands off of me so... ;) Who knows how long he will "just" hold me =D
Anyway... My point is. I love him. He even got me thinking about children ;) Noone saw that coming huh? =D
Te sarut iubitule!
Loneliness...
My heart is starting to feel lonely. I miss him so much I dont function if Im not occupied with something...
I love my family... My sister is one of my best friends....
I see them a couple of times a year and I dont miss them nearly as much.
How do I survive till I can come see him again?? Till he can come see me here?
I need his arms around me when I sleep.. New years was way too addictive!
I love my family... My sister is one of my best friends....
I see them a couple of times a year and I dont miss them nearly as much.
How do I survive till I can come see him again?? Till he can come see me here?
I need his arms around me when I sleep.. New years was way too addictive!
Back....
And yet again my feet are treading swedish soil.
About 20:00 swedish time this monday I steped out of the plane on Arlanda, got my bag and greeted my dad who was kind enough to come get me.
I was happy to be home. Dads home is the most homelike place in the world for me. I love it...
The fireplace was lit when I got home and a lambsteak was in the oven.
And I missed him. There is spot inside thats slowly filling up with a sense of loss, however much we speak on messenger or phone or vent.
I really wished I could have brought him with me in my pocket.
Im not sure its legal since smuggling people is a crime, but who cares.
Sleeping has been a bit tricky since. I will have to get used to sleeping alone and I miss my private radiator.
I miss his heartbeat, his arms around me, his fingers slowly running through my hair, his soft kisses on my cheeks, forhead and lips... Most of all I miss his smile and laugh and the way he cares for me...
Im back at work and its fun... I have enough to do now to keep my days busy...
In about 2 weeks its time for skiweek and all my friends. I had better get the pictures up before then because it will be lots of questioning then. I will be interrogated like crazy. Possibly it might be a good idea to bring lots of clothes for changing since I will probably have to defend myself in snowwrestling...
Mihai my love... please come and save me :D
About 20:00 swedish time this monday I steped out of the plane on Arlanda, got my bag and greeted my dad who was kind enough to come get me.
I was happy to be home. Dads home is the most homelike place in the world for me. I love it...
The fireplace was lit when I got home and a lambsteak was in the oven.
And I missed him. There is spot inside thats slowly filling up with a sense of loss, however much we speak on messenger or phone or vent.
I really wished I could have brought him with me in my pocket.
Im not sure its legal since smuggling people is a crime, but who cares.
Sleeping has been a bit tricky since. I will have to get used to sleeping alone and I miss my private radiator.
I miss his heartbeat, his arms around me, his fingers slowly running through my hair, his soft kisses on my cheeks, forhead and lips... Most of all I miss his smile and laugh and the way he cares for me...
Im back at work and its fun... I have enough to do now to keep my days busy...
In about 2 weeks its time for skiweek and all my friends. I had better get the pictures up before then because it will be lots of questioning then. I will be interrogated like crazy. Possibly it might be a good idea to bring lots of clothes for changing since I will probably have to defend myself in snowwrestling...
Mihai my love... please come and save me :D
6 days and....
Ok. So I have 6 days and 10 hours till my plane is supposed to take off...
6 hours and 10 hours of waiting.
Once Im on that plane I will be either very exited... or very very nervous.
I have no idea yet but who cares =)
2 days of laundry, cleaning the apartment, and packing.1.5 days left of working.
2 days of christmas with the family.
Then... I will suddenly be with him...
Crazy =D
I just got home. Its friday and I just stepped through the door after working, a christmasdinner for the servicedepartment at work (could have been better), meeting with Kilt, Stitch and Linnea at Liseberg (the lights are beautiful and the part with "snow" is very pretty too) and shopping for stuff like toothbrush and schampoo so I have all that when I start packing...
Now I will get myself a huge cup of tea, change the lamp in the room and than start to decide what I dont want to bring...
He is out having beer with his friends so Im awaiting funny sms in a while ;)
Christmas and New years are coming... with family and love...
Couldnt be better ...
Ps. Today I, unfortunately, lost all respect I ever had
for a certain person. Its sad cause its a person
I at first considered a friend. Ah well.. You can
only be childish for so long before people start
to grow tired of your behaviour...
for a certain person. Its sad cause its a person
I at first considered a friend. Ah well.. You can
only be childish for so long before people start
to grow tired of your behaviour...
Countdown... is slow...
God damn I miss you! Thirteen more days till I can be with you.
First another week of work. I have to go to the hairdresser tuesday and wednesday there is a Whitesnake concert.
Im cleaning my apartment and throwing things out to make more space.
I have 2 more christmasgifts to find. A bag to pack for 2 days with my family and nine days with you.
I have more than enough to fill my days.
Still I just miss you... Its empty without you!
Thirteen more days...
First another week of work. I have to go to the hairdresser tuesday and wednesday there is a Whitesnake concert.
Im cleaning my apartment and throwing things out to make more space.
I have 2 more christmasgifts to find. A bag to pack for 2 days with my family and nine days with you.
I have more than enough to fill my days.
Still I just miss you... Its empty without you!
Thirteen more days...
Keeping you forever and for always
I did something for my darling today. I even have an accomplice in this little secret...
He is soooo curious ;) But no! He will know soon... He will have to wait =D
Isnt it a bit amazing? I have someone who claims to belong to me... Who asks to be mine forever and who I can dare love with no fear. I could describe what he means to me but that wouldnt be appropriate for an open forum like this ;)
My sweetheart knows... That's what's important you see.
It's cold outside now. Mornings are the worst, when I have to get out of my warm cosy bed and get out in to the either damn cold dark Gothenburg, or the totally crazy stormy (wind that makes the obligatory rain come from all sides at once... even from below) reality that is autumns / winters in Gothenburg.
It really isnt that big a problem but my back is really getting worse and worse. Constant pain in my back and neck. Not the best way to spend time.
On the bright side David promised he would help me find new jeans. Its a good thing to have a friend who works at JC. ;) I might even find a pair I like with a little assistance...
Time for a cup of tea.. Anyone care to join me?
He is soooo curious ;) But no! He will know soon... He will have to wait =D
Isnt it a bit amazing? I have someone who claims to belong to me... Who asks to be mine forever and who I can dare love with no fear. I could describe what he means to me but that wouldnt be appropriate for an open forum like this ;)
My sweetheart knows... That's what's important you see.
It's cold outside now. Mornings are the worst, when I have to get out of my warm cosy bed and get out in to the either damn cold dark Gothenburg, or the totally crazy stormy (wind that makes the obligatory rain come from all sides at once... even from below) reality that is autumns / winters in Gothenburg.
It really isnt that big a problem but my back is really getting worse and worse. Constant pain in my back and neck. Not the best way to spend time.
On the bright side David promised he would help me find new jeans. Its a good thing to have a friend who works at JC. ;) I might even find a pair I like with a little assistance...
Time for a cup of tea.. Anyone care to join me?
Rollercoaster
A small summary of this last weeks rollercoaster ride...
Trouble ahead. At least some parts of my life are hard to get through at the moment. It's a good thing I am such a "grinder". We will manage, of course.
On the other hand. Beerfest this weekend. I will have such a good time!
I haven't really partied with these people in ages and I missed them.
Work is fun. Imagine having fun at work? I didn't think I would be in this position one year ago.
I fall deeper and deeper each day that goes by. Mihai holds my heart and I cant wait to see him again. Until then I just make the most of our talks.
Thank you love, for making me smile!
No more info as of now. Signing out!
//Eow.
Trouble ahead. At least some parts of my life are hard to get through at the moment. It's a good thing I am such a "grinder". We will manage, of course.
On the other hand. Beerfest this weekend. I will have such a good time!
I haven't really partied with these people in ages and I missed them.
Work is fun. Imagine having fun at work? I didn't think I would be in this position one year ago.
I fall deeper and deeper each day that goes by. Mihai holds my heart and I cant wait to see him again. Until then I just make the most of our talks.
Thank you love, for making me smile!
No more info as of now. Signing out!
//Eow.
Ticket to ride
Tickets ordered, payed for and ready to use.
Now its just waiting...
How will I be able to wait so long?
I love you!
Now its just waiting...
How will I be able to wait so long?
I love you!
Spawn of Lucifer!
When Im going to and from work I usally read. It makes time fly and is also one of the few moments where I can actually relax enough to just read.
Since I mostly carry paperbacks I have a leathercover for them so they wont be destroyed while bouncing around in my bag. Its a black leathercover that makes even the most suspicious book look somber and dignified..
Anyway... Here is what happend yesterday on my way home from work.
I was sitting by the window and there was a woman sitting next to me with plenty of bags so I think it was a little light weekend travel on her part. Just as the tram was heading in from Mölndal to Göteborg she pushed me a little to make me notice the guy on the other side of her.
He was looking at me as if he was expecting an answer and when I just looked pussled he said "Is that the bible you are reading?"
Since my experience with people asking such things are they never shut up I just said "No. Its not" and went back to reading.
He was quiet maybe a minute and then... "What book is it???"
I couldnt be bothered so I just kept reading.
Some more silence and then a loud statement to the rest of the passengers "Aha! Its the book of the devil. The book of Lucifer!!!!"
At this point I couldnt help myself so I started smiling. Oh dear god I would have liked to say "It is a novel, a fiction. It has murder in it... Some love... jealousy and human interaction. Just a fiction... Pretty much like the bible!" But I didnt.
I was nice! I controlled my need to laugh at him ;)
When I smirked he just stood up and got off the tram.
I wonder what it is with people with strong religious views. The need they feel to force their conviction upon others?
Religion in the hands of a fanatic is a scary thing.
Ah well... There is little thats more satisfying than seing someone like that make a fool out of himself when he tries to put someone else down. =)
On a more important note! I am waiting to see if I get my days off at christmas... If I do. I'll go see my dads christmas and then its Romania at new years :D :D :D
Cant wait!!!!
